I am not that kind of person who writes a lot. I have lots of thoughts, feelings and ideas that I would love to write about. But I always feel as if there are not enough words to express my feelings and thoughts and then I am feeling blocked. When talking, I always use to many words, because I would like people to understand the things I want to say in the same level of detail I see it in my mind. As this is almost impossible, I feel helpless and awkward when it comes to words.
Still, I spend a lot of time musing and wandering about all the projects and inspiration in my head which need to come out in some way. I can not sit at my desk for hours and hours. I will paint for a little while, let it rest, and will get back to it later with a fresh look to finish it. Most of the time this happens through doodling on several pages at the same time. While painting I am surrounded with paper with watercolor splashes and doodles. When there is a more specific theme in my head I look through my stack of paper and start to work out one of them. That’s how it works for me.
Here is one of them, painted circles with leftover paint of my big watercolor brush before changing colors. I reuse this because it feels like waste to spill the paint. For the text shining through I used an app to create this double image.
I like to illustrate my imaginary world by expressing and translating my thoughts and feelings into color and pattern.